I wish I could tell everything,
But I have no right words:
I’ve lost all I knew.
How to shape all you feel
So they can understand?
What I feel? Am I failed?
Days go past away.
Something eats my time.
I don’t know what I want,
I don’t know who I am.
I’ll soon really fall in the pit of doom,
Stasis of grief and despair.
Where I am? Is today is today?
Or tomorrow, or yesterday?
Where I’ll come? Where to turn?
There’s no answers for me.
I don’t know what to tell.
Everything changes, everything flows.
Everything dies, everything borns.
I use back eddies to achieve my goals,
But what will I leave from all of it? None.
My accomplishments are nothing in the time flow,
Though I still struggling or I become bored
Until the end of my days, when its date - I don't know,
Until the end of the days, when everything is gone.
I can't forget how you looked at me once by IAstartov, literature
Literature
I can't forget how you looked at me once
I can’t forget how you looked at me once.
Though not able to recall, to describe it,
I’ll understand at the moment, beheld:
Piercing with tender and love
Your look called me to seek the way there,
Where I thought I never could be.
The crowd is a beast that crawls on the streets,
People swarms in the honeycombs of buildings;
I hear how snake-like faucet hiss,
My neighbors staring at their muttering television.
My memory throws a picture by picture,
Bristling with events, thus making me amazed;
Some words, woven from the scraps of talking,
At my weakened mind like a thread interlace.
Cables and wires, straying, creep throughout apartments
Through the narrow arches of the furniture legs;
There are loud cries of agony under my windows
From the people clutched to the ideals of ancient.
And the rain pours tapping on this world with acid,
It erodes to oblivion al
Abyss of thoughts and desires by IAstartov, literature
Literature
Abyss of thoughts and desires
Day by day I plunge deeper
Into the abyss of thoughts and desires,
Flickering dreams.
Drowning inside, horrified,
Yet, at the same time, enjoying,
Captured by this wonderful world
Where at past I lived a lot,
Sheltering from murmurs of others
Behind a wall.
I wonder if I really know someone by IAstartov, literature
Literature
I wonder if I really know someone
I wonder if I really know someone:
Sometimes we see each other different,
And you imagine other man,
Your dreams, your wishes – not the real.
Regrets and sorrow – things you’ve met
When world around fell in ruins:
It’s all because you thrown away
Your vision that you found amusing.
And you feel emptiness this time,
There’s nothing left behind that story,
You’re seeking something new to find
And place that thing instead of fallen.
How everything can come so strange?
I often struggle with the guessing,
And answer slips throughout my head –
I try to catch but always missing.
I wish I could tell everything,
But I have no right words:
I’ve lost all I knew.
How to shape all you feel
So they can understand?
What I feel? Am I failed?
Days go past away.
Something eats my time.
I don’t know what I want,
I don’t know who I am.
I’ll soon really fall in the pit of doom,
Stasis of grief and despair.
Where I am? Is today is today?
Or tomorrow, or yesterday?
Where I’ll come? Where to turn?
There’s no answers for me.
I don’t know what to tell.
Everything changes, everything flows.
Everything dies, everything borns.
I use back eddies to achieve my goals,
But what will I leave from all of it? None.
My accomplishments are nothing in the time flow,
Though I still struggling or I become bored
Until the end of my days, when its date - I don't know,
Until the end of the days, when everything is gone.
I can't forget how you looked at me once by IAstartov, literature
Literature
I can't forget how you looked at me once
I can’t forget how you looked at me once.
Though not able to recall, to describe it,
I’ll understand at the moment, beheld:
Piercing with tender and love
Your look called me to seek the way there,
Where I thought I never could be.
The crowd is a beast that crawls on the streets,
People swarms in the honeycombs of buildings;
I hear how snake-like faucet hiss,
My neighbors staring at their muttering television.
My memory throws a picture by picture,
Bristling with events, thus making me amazed;
Some words, woven from the scraps of talking,
At my weakened mind like a thread interlace.
Cables and wires, straying, creep throughout apartments
Through the narrow arches of the furniture legs;
There are loud cries of agony under my windows
From the people clutched to the ideals of ancient.
And the rain pours tapping on this world with acid,
It erodes to oblivion al
Abyss of thoughts and desires by IAstartov, literature
Literature
Abyss of thoughts and desires
Day by day I plunge deeper
Into the abyss of thoughts and desires,
Flickering dreams.
Drowning inside, horrified,
Yet, at the same time, enjoying,
Captured by this wonderful world
Where at past I lived a lot,
Sheltering from murmurs of others
Behind a wall.
I wonder if I really know someone by IAstartov, literature
Literature
I wonder if I really know someone
I wonder if I really know someone:
Sometimes we see each other different,
And you imagine other man,
Your dreams, your wishes – not the real.
Regrets and sorrow – things you’ve met
When world around fell in ruins:
It’s all because you thrown away
Your vision that you found amusing.
And you feel emptiness this time,
There’s nothing left behind that story,
You’re seeking something new to find
And place that thing instead of fallen.
How everything can come so strange?
I often struggle with the guessing,
And answer slips throughout my head –
I try to catch but always missing.
I rarely create something, so there is little to upload to show here. So I am more observer than creator. Some day it may change. Anyway I glad to see many talented people and I am inspired by their works. It's hard for me to express feelings about any artwork, so I often use in comments words like "amazing", "great" and etc. or even can write nothing. I wish I can say more and give critique, not only few words.
No time for DA anymore. At january 2016 I've finally decided to begin to study Chinese Mandarin, yay. So I'm putting a lot of effort into the study of the new language. My English suffers, though.